Yesterday morning I felt so lousy, emotional and just a mess so I asked LeRoy for a blessing. I fell back to sleep for about an hour and a half and when I woke up I just felt like I had a more clear head. I was able to get going, though rather slowly, and even though my body still seemed to be dragging around, my head was on top of things. I forget sometimes that the power of the priesthood can be so reassuring. Not that it took away the pain or the problems, but my spirit felt more calm as well as ready and willing to get through the next month. It really did feel like a new beginning.
I had an appointment with my midwife this afternoon (which I will get to next) but first I needed to go take care of some liens at the court house. I was kind of dreading it only because there is never parking close to the court house but I was glad to get the mess taken care of. We had put liens on a couple of homes for one contractor that just does not get us paid. He has even called and asked us to remove the liens before he sells the houses so that he can do other things with the money but we stood firm in keeping them. It finally feels so good (and a new beginning) to finally have all of his invoices paid in full - thanks to the title company and the liens. Now our policy with this contractor is that he must have 60% paid in cash before we do any work for him.
Then I had my midwife appointment. It was the first time with her that I really showed how lousy I felt and had been feeling for the last week. The thing that is so wonderful about her is that she is more like an angel than a midwife and gave me almost 2 full hours. I had a massage, which during that time really helped my body to relax and somewhat match my spirit (the new feeling of confidence and clarity) and we talked about the coming birth. By the time I left I was no longer limping from pain in my hips, I had new tips on how to take care of myself these last few weeks and I am excited to pull out the newborn and birth stuff to be ready. It is the first time in this pregnancy that I can actually imagine holding my new little one, being excited for and looking forward to his coming rather than just seeing all the pain, change and family stuff going on around me and just hoping that I can handle adding him to the chaos. Definitely a new beginning.
Last night we had YW New Beginnings for the ward we are currently in. We went to New Beginnings last month with the ward we will be moving into. The night was nice but also kind of an eye opener to see that Erika really is ready to move to the new YW group (which she has been attending mutual with for the last 6 weeks). I am so thankful for that! It isn't that this ward is bad, it just really struggles and some of Erika's past year problems were coming directly from things going on in YW. Even some of the leaders (2 of whom are in my bunco group) have expressed concern for the problems going on. Though it was a fun night with great food and a couple of touching moments, it was good to see that we really are ready for the new beginning coming with a new ward and also to recognize the new beginnings that Erika seems to be making as she has been making better choices than in the past. She really seemed to shine last night and we haven't seen that in a few months.
This morning (after a better night sleep than I have had in quite a while) I decided to ignore the usual routine (empty dishwasher, tidy up around the house, plan dinner, shower) and went for a couple of things that I want to get done before the baby comes. So I started with my bedroom (and with Nathan having his own sponge and rag he has been helpful). I have cleaned the fan which still had last fall's dust on it, washed ALL of the bedding and curtains, washed the walls that had been collecting dust and hand prints since we moved in here, cleaned the blinds and as soon as I get the gumption to go to the store and get a new vacuum filter I will vacuum the floor up with the shop vac. It really needs a new filter after Levi's little episode with fishy water on the floor. The room smells so nice now - completely dust free - because of a new cleaner that I am trying. I really can't stand the smell of most cleaners, especially now, so I found one (Simple Green) that leaves a clean smell without a bunch of flowery, perfumey, chemical smells behind. Ahhhh, a clean bedroom for the birth and a major new beginning! Of course I will still need to wash the bedding and vacuum up again before he comes but the major cleaning part is done - at least for that room.
Now that I've had a little break at the computer (where else, the office chair doesn't hurt my hips) I am going to go back to tackling projects. After all it is only 11:00 - I have a whole day ahead of me and I'm not even dreading it.
**I just read through this again and realized that I may have over-used the whole 'new beginnings' idea, or at least the phrase . . . sorry!
4 comments:
No, you didn't overuse it, silly. :P I think the whole post really gelled together and made a lot of sense.
I'm glad you've found some new beginnings! Some things to get you through this last month (or so) until baby arrives. It sounds wonderful, and I wish I had some new beginnings like that of my own. :S
(Your midwife sounds AWESOME, BTW.)
I'm also glad that things are looking promising for your new ward in your new home, especially for Erika.
Keep up the good work! ;) (That sounded dumb, I should've said, 'try to take care of yourself' or something really wise! Sorry.)
I liked your New Beginnings theme. For our NB I spoke and told the YW that it was New Years Eve for them and a good time to make resolutions about attending YW and getting their Personal Progress done. Kind of a corny idea but I like new starts... not just a once a year thing but every month, every week, even every new day. This pregnancy has given me a new perspective on that as I can feel so differently one day to the next.
Good job on cleaning the room. I know you really wanted that done and it's hard to do those things when your regular routine saps all your energy.
I hope the rest of your day went just as well!
YW can be so hard depending on the ward. I am glad things are looking up for her in a new ward. A burst of nesting energy maybe??? Sorry, I depised people who would say stuff like that to at the end. I wish I had it in me to refreshen up my room. I have no physical limitations, no excuses. Maybe this could be my project for next week.
I can't believe how close you are getting to having this little baby. Congrats on getting your room clean, if you are in need of another place to clean, come on down.
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